eilandskya-deactivated20110722- asked: I feel so relaxed. I can't believe you drove in the rain that late at night just to come say happy birthday even when my parents said no (bitches). I'm truly blessed to have such a wonderful, caring, and loving boyfriend/friend. The flowers were unexpected and beautiful. Our time in the car was pure bliss. I love you endlessly. I'm still a bit speechless about you flying out here...
So remember when I was saying I couldn't do...
I did something. I flew out to LA to spend time with her and fam. Its a good weekend so far. =]
I hate not being able to do anything. Its the worst feeling to be absolutely helpless. I feel like I’m trapped in a bubble. I can see everything thats going on, but I can’t do shit. This was supposed to be the perfect weekend, but she ruined it. In all my helplessness, my thoughts are just getting increasingly more violent. They’re starting to scare me.
I’m upset still. Its just so disappointing. I spent all of that time waiting and trying to think of things to do. A few days to go, A few days to go, I finally felt safe getting excited, theres was no way plans could mess up. But, they did and now my weekend isn’t gonna be awesome. I should learn that when things are too good to be true, they are.
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I wonder what would happen...
if i just let my mind go. i wonder if i still can. if i was just weird as i wanna be and said everything that came to my mind. people would hate me. but would i care. imma try that shit. im just not gonna hold back.
I’m irritated out of my fucking mind.
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eilandskya-deactivated20110722- asked: I love you. 6 more days.
Because it’s a list of only three, I’m gonna exclude all criteria except for how they make me feel and how they’ve helped me. 1. Wristcutters: A Love Story A perfect little nugget of hope right when I was at the point of wanting to die. 2. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind It helped put love into perspective. 3. Do the Right Thing It makes me think. It helps put life...
I could lose her and it really does scare me. I’ve never cared for anybody this much. I’ve never put in so much of myself into anything, especially a person. I can’t handle the thought of her not always being mine. But its inevitable and I know it. It hurts so much knowing that she won’t be around forever. Especially cause I’ve started to entertain the thought so much...
Just had a series of bad dreams. They all ended with the same outcome. You stopped loving me. I hate falling asleep when I’m worried.
I get worried too easily.
1. 1984 I love the way its written. Its a very dark book of an ominous and tyrannic society. Yet its filled with a love story, then the logical deconstruction of everything the man thinks. I don’t know how to explain it, but I’m definitely reading again. 2. New Moon, before Edward comes back. I love how the author describes the pain Bella feels after Edward leaves and how Jacob...
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Beyoncé (3) Louis Armstrong (1) Peter White (1) Corinne Bailey Rae (1) Ace (1) Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
I can’t watch Wristcutters because they took it off instant streaming for Netflix. Bitch move, Netflix.
1. Pasta with Chicken, Tossed with Sun-Dried Tomatoes, Fresh Mushrooms, Garlic, Cream and Parmesan Cheese. From the Grand Lux Cafe 2. Bacon wrapped hot dog 3. Pepperoni pizza from Lamonica’s 4. A good New York strip (steak) 5. Apple walnut cobbler with caramel topping and a scoop of vanilla ice cream in the middle from Houston’s
I need a hug.
6 places you want to go
1. Italy 2. France 3. Spain 4. Cuba 5. Back to Maui 6. Home
1. Skya Eiland 2. Coffee with Skya Eiland 3. Cigars with Skya Eiland 4. Blunts with Skya Eiland 5. Sleep with Skya Eiland 6. Sex with Skya Eiland 7. Better food at the nearest dining hall.