I have so much anger and frustration and don’t know how to release it. I want to fuck something up. I’m starting to get all knotted up again. I’m losing my sanity. I don’t want a repeat of last year.
Over the past 14 months I’ve put so much into this relationship. I’ve invested all of me, emotionally and physically. I’ve let you completely in, which is something I can honestly say I’ve never done. You are my first love. I’ll always love you. I’ll never forget you.
I hate today.
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2011-1-23) →
Waka Flocka,Gucci Mane, (10) Gucci Mane (3) Common (2) Waka Flocka Flame (2) Dr. Dre (2) Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
Sleep Paralysist (Com Truise ‘Eyelid’ Remix)...
Whenever I'm not with her, there's just a constant...
I’m laying here trying to remember pain. Physical pain. The memory of pain is so awkward. I can remember how it felt, but I can’t feel it. I keep thinking that if pain is in my head, then it should be recreatable. I should be able to focus on how it felt and feel it. But I can’t. I just get a hollow memory of it. Like old scents once smelled but now forgotten. You can remember...
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2011-1-16) →
Nipsey Hussle (9) Kanye West (6) Lil’ Wayne (4) Rick Ross (3) Curren$y (3) Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
I know that I say this a lot, but I miss her. I haven’t been able to focus on my class work because we really didn’t talk today. Its fucking pathetic, but shit happens.
I’ll Be There For You by Mary J. Blidge and...
I’m going to start using my camera more. I’m feeling the need.
I thought I was gonna have her to myself. Sigh.
Carmelo: playing for Knicks is "ultimate dream"
Reporter: You're from Brooklyn, your wife's from New York, how important is it to maybe head back in that direction?
Carmelo: That's like the ultimate dream at the end of the day. Who wouldn't want to go back home to play? You ask anybody that question, anybody would say that they would want go back home to play.
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Well...anybody except LeBron James...
My speakers are so loud.....
…that people are walking up to my room confused. …people alllll the way across the building can hear it. …that my feet are vibrating. …that the hairs in my ass are vibrating. …yea, they’re loud as fuck.
skyaeiland: Ducktails - Killin’ the Vibe Good...
I don’t feel like going to class today. Yesterday night wasn’t good and neither is this morning.
I wish we never argued over stupid stuff.
H.A.M. by Kanye West and Jay-Z
H.A.M. by Kanye West and Jay-Z
I’m trying to wear out HAM before it hits the radio. And tomorrow my new speakers come in and I’m about to blast the shit out of it…..on repeat.
I’m kind of angry that Skya posted a photo on Facebook that she took for me one night. Its a really illogical anger, but the way I see it is that its my photo. It was taken special for me. I don’t want others to see it. It holds sentimental value and I don’t want it flaunted as a default picture so that all those other thirsty ass feinin niggas can see it. She’s mine. Back...
I feel like no one listens.